Worry No more!!!!!!

Okay here goes , At times im compelled to think allthough i credit myself for being "PSEUDO INTELLECTUAL" all the time ...concepts of physics have always been interesting....i know nothing bt cosmology... few days ago i dint even know what that meant...Metaphysics and ontological concepts are just beyond me..least I kno now that its gotta to do something with existance...Id nothing to do so had the time to gain some knowledge through random conversations...A friend & I had this great debate about " time " and all thats associated with it... dint quite comprehend a word of what he spoke but thats me... Well come to think of it and I should have taken the trouble to learn all this long tym ago.. but what the hell ?? its not too late is it? okay i got to learn a lot about eternalism and concepts related to that ...considering the same, it only means that the future is already there... and I neednt worry! lol! Space time nevar changes rite , then what is exactly change? dont things change with time? thats the three dimensional view, if im not mistaken... but this block universe concept seems cool ... it helps you get rid of fears ...may be i neednt worry about anything.. i needent worry about my low paying job, about the fact that I have a knee injury and i dint go to the doc! according to the theory there is no such thing as over or no longer happening now... so this is to all my worries ! I care no more ! In all that i read ..A theory , big bang and all that... the only concept that went straight to my head was .. Theres so much to do in life..& there so much to learn ... and as the theory says what situation yur in should hardly matter! Next time I dont study for an exam ... and I feel guilty about it , that i should have .. i just remind myself of this awesome concept " if Eternalism is correct, it shouldn't matter at all" ... !

What on earth is wrong with me??????????????

PEOPLE WHAT IN THE WORLD IS THIS?????? Or am i this idiotic specimen who doesnt seem to understand all this.. was with a friend a couple of days ago..and there was this sermon... on the importance of being friends .... was a real eye opener of sorts.. wah! kya baat hai!Everyone wants a true friend, and many of us believe that we have a friend who can be called a true friend. What kind of relations do friends share? When can we call a friend a true friend, and when can our friends take us as their true friend. crap like this is beyond me..why all this i dont seem to know and i dont understand too.. the human element seems missing in me these days i guess.. or its simply that people around me are abnormal... i dont see the reason for yu to prove or reassure... then whats the diff??? dude get a life... !!!! so much for emotional aatyachaar!!! God himself has claimed that friendship is the best thing in this world...and its whole beauty and joy lies in opening our hearts out, discovering more ... the point is people dont seem to understand .. its NOT about OH MY FRIEND...all the tym....!!! A normal human wud be frnds with another human quite eaisly... but when yu befriend people of other species... yu have to learn to deal with them..thats what real friendship is atleast thats what i feeel.... oh yeah yu dont talk so loud if you dont get the concept in yur head!!! okai all that and more here's my opinion...
The very first sign of a very good friend, not necessarily a true friend is that we are not worried about courtesies. You will call your friend at any hour and talk without any thought of time in your mind. Similarly, whenever you need support, you will call a very good friend and ask him/her to help you out. They expect the same from you. Another important trait of such relations is that we are not much worried about exposing ourselves. We speak about everything in our mind without worrying about what our friends will think. We are sure that they will take our talk in the spirit it was made. We are unguarded and open with friends in our talk.

A true friend is a little more than a very good friend. A true friend will support you no matter what the situation is . will understand your motives and needs and will be with you without any ANALYSIS OR CRiTISISM. A true friend will come forward to help without any request and be with us in need without showing it or expecting anything in return. With a true friend, you can be sure that you will get help to the extent possible by him/her. Nothing will remain unturned. com on ppl get a life!!! okay we all are friends .. just dont create any melodrama of sorts cuz it gets to head yu see... dont ask me to reassure i wont ... not even if the gods above say so!!
cuz if do ask me for an assurance we wont be good friends in the first place... yu dont want me to talk so be it!!! " ive done so much for yu... " okai i understand that and i appreciate it too... that doesnt hold good if yu talk behind and assume stuff!!! "awh we are great friends..." scene change and " OH that fool" what the hell...????? get a life!

Atul and ananya story!!

Well , its JAB WE MET reloaded .. but with a little twist! talk of twists!! well Baba Here goes the story .. that was so imcomplete till now..well now its all complete and sorted out and they live happily ever after sorts ... (Gosh i hate love story's ) ...
Beats me how a class picture back in school days can sort things out.. well that did happen .. thanks to some crazy ppl who collect pictures! Here the so called stars are atul and ananya .. ( well they arent my best pals or sorts ..).. when yu travel by public transport yu tend to make "by the way" friends. yu dont know their names & yu dont even know what they do.. all yu kno is they accompany yu till CMTI or peenya or sorts like that...picked up a conversation with this girl while on a bus to college one day ..( i like even remember it was sep 3 .. cheers to my hopeless memory... hopeless i say for want of a better word..) and i never knew this wud crop up someday.. she sat rite next to me.. was the first tym i travelled by volvo (250 I) ..Intially i dint notice her..i only did that when she asked me where peenya was .. rite in front of peenya bus stop lol... i was like man this girl has brains .. she got down .. first meeting over.. ! I still cudnt stop laughing .. im evil yu see ... Long way from peenya to my college ..I was still in splits .. but ya i also realised that this girl was really pretty ..( gosh!!!)or may be it was her salwar ..i dont no why im in love with white salwars ! well she had long hair that i noticed .. cuz ive alopecia .. huh whatever! damn!i had long hair too ..! well bw this i realised id to get down and run to coll cos it was half past eight and i was running late for class as usual...
Second meet 250 I again! the day before i chose to sit next to her..today she chose to accompany me .. id internals .. no mood to converse .. i noticed she'd worn red today ! anyway i love my orange shirt.. ( thats my lucky shirt , any exam and i make it point to wear it! even if it stinks !! like I care) I was busy cramming up stuff .. she was the saddist that day who dint want me to get a double digit !! imagine i landed up with 3 on 25 (thats cursty ananya!!) . well of all the days she chose to introduce herself that day!! why god why??( not like i wudve scored a 25. that never happened thruout engg... na!!) She smiled and said she was ananya , i made a long face .. frowned and said I was Priyanka !! She was on her way to office she apperently joined the other day..blah blah she went on abt her coll pritampura delhi and all else .. i was like God she talks more than me... !!( thats only before i met atul...!!) i still wonder why is that telcom engineers talk so much .. ??? anyways i cud study nothing.. she just wudnt allow me too...I ve this hopeless tendency to jump to conclusions & i presumed she's also this "Beauty with no Brains" (forgive me if yu ever read this lol)....
Well 250 I became my daily routine.. and so did ananya!
SEP 15 : This one's rite out of those hazaar hindi movies yuve seen ... anya( thats why i call her now..) and me were waiting at the bus stop that day...Ive this awful feeling that creeps up when ive to wait at yeshwanthpur bus stop(Its the only other place I hate in blore...) Blah blah ...five minutes.. my eyesight is bad i agree but they aint that hopeless...Its been the longest trips to college eva!! trust me!Keanu Reeves neva travelled by BMTC .. did he? or was i halucinating...jeez that the first time I saw Atul.. man I'll never forget that.. He does look like keanu.. i was speechless.. (uff!!) awestruck.. amazed.. but what the hell was he doing in 250??? did i kno .. i simply dint.. He wore this amazing white formals ... ( I so hate peter england now...)Cheers to my grasim Mr.India (thats him!!) .. well that was story.. pri saw atul ...and all that...
Random conversations with anya continued.. dint mention atul at all..(Well i dint quite know his name back then...) ... There was this one purticular day..got up lazily at seven for a class at eight..got ready like in mins .. was in a hurry to reach the busstop..and there shils and baba drop by to see me...( somehow that day just turned out to be awesome ...)guess the two seem to be quite lucky for me atleast..well i saw anya was impatiently waiting for me to arrive.. shez normally not restless today she was..i always thought she had a crush on the conductor lol... i told her so..WAH KYA THOUGHT HAI!!(hold on to that!!) she jostled to get to the seat rite behind atul..intially i was hopelessly nervous.. my heart just skipped a beat .. the voices in my head said "HOW THE HELL DID SHE KNOW??".. apparently she knew nothing ... all she knew was everything... what??????????????
She told me this guy in front goes by the name atul .. and he worked somewhere around there.. ie... peenya.. she knew this guy back in 12 grade.. and blah blah blah... come to think of it and i wonder now why the hell did i interfere.. oh yeah if i hadnt i wudnt be telling yu guys this boring story!! so much for troubling all of yu!! Im the bali ka bakra .. she wanted me to walk up to him and talk..(Gosh why on earth did i do that!!!) ho humm .. so much for frnds.. (btw i wanted to speak too..lol..) was horribly late hence random 8'oclock conversation postponed itself to the next working day!
next working day: dint see shils and baba in the morning ..inference day was horrible... ha ha ha ... anyways i took all the trouble in the world to find out more on the atul and anya story..(why GOD WHY??) miseries galore.. she told me she apperently was head over heels for him..i was like sooooooooooooooo ( lOve is crap anyway!!!)... stupid girl... dint tell me before.. like a good frnd i walked upto atul ... said hello... that was it...he started speaking... !!!! and the rest is nonsense... ( why is it that beauty and brains run parallel....) anyway i thanked the holy saints.. and concluded that they were a match made in heaven!!!!
days passed by and random 8 am conversations too... until one fine day .. I went mad .. and vented out everything to atul..(yu guys owe me a treat idoits!) He on the other hand failed to recognise her.. (man so much for comedy!!) What a hillrious situation that was... all he knew was he studied in a "HAZAAR SCHOOLS" so he dint recognize her.. oh jeez..!! anya on the other hand.. was heart broken sorts... and me the fool was inbtwn ...and in a total fix... i dont react to emotions easily and that too crap like this.. poor thing she cried only for me to laugh.... HA HA HA... and ya she still thinks im this stone hearted idiot with no emotions at all... oh come on... well she asked me for help ... and i refused .. why i refused i still dont seem to kno... may be ive a chilhood problem... btw ive like a HAZAAR childhood problems... thats another story!! She cried like a fool ... and my mornings became miserable...and so did the entire day ...its not like the best feeling oh earth yu see... but ya it dawned that may be a little help wud make that difference... so i met anya one fine day .. decided id help.. i still dint know how... (i dint want to talk to atul.. he kills yu instantly ... opens his mouth only to talk all the nonsense in the world.. and takes an hour to shut up!!!!!) well i dint have the courage to speak.. only for him to tell me the same old RAM KAHANI again... na i wasnt really interested...He asked me to prove that she actually knew him... i was like what the hell?? is he like mad???? and why was i part of nonsense like this for no fault of mine... i was like dude!!! now who on earth wud want to know all that .. anya is so cute.. ! (gosh!) may be he was throwing some attitude ... i was like whatever... !!
Next day i see the two of them ... together like the were always meant to be "MADE FOR EACH OTHER..." and how did this happen ... again anya... she dug out an old picture from the old school album .. just for him...(THU... id never do that...!!!!!) what happened i still dont know...but seriously i dont preserve things ... i dont even know where my B.E. slam book is ... huh whatever.. and what was my part in this stupid moronish story... yeah thats rite nothing ! nothing at all... no credits to me... wah !!! KYA STORY HAI???? its all nonsense! and thats the reason its here!